Published July 9, 2013 in God - 0 Comments

Read Psalms 118

Growing up, every friend I had abandoned me at one time or another. I was the nerd, the weirdo, the odd ball. No one wanted to really be my friend (or so I thought).

People who did come to my house either paid my video games or my father (who was head coach of every sport team I participated in). I started to feel as though there was something wrong with me. Then I developed a deep mistrust of everyone.

It started with friends, then moved to family when I felt they failed me. I despised and hated everyone. I figuratively put on blood soaked glasses and viewed the world as evil, a place I didn’t want to live in.

I never really wanted to die, I just longed to be somewhere else. I found a campus ministry in college, and for a time I was happy, but still couldn’t trust the people there. The campus minister treated me well and earned my trust, but I remained guarded against everyone else.

I met my wife in the midst of this, and we overcame a great number of my trust issues together. I still remain guarded, but less so now.

On my swing back from trust issues, I think I have found middle ground. I trust people only so far as to let them know me and see me. I only place enough value on those relationships to affect affairs relating to that specific relationship. I have learned to segment my life and take each relationship separately, as each one is vastly different.

No person is related to my salvation through Jesus. He alone is in control of this and He is who I place my full faith. Even when I have no money, even when I have poor health, even when I am depressed, He has always been there, and I believe He always will be.

“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.” – Psalms 118:8

One last thought, no matter how great the country you live in is, the decisions of your country’s leadership will not earn their salvation. Demonstrate if you must, vote when you can, then let the issue go. If you spend your life changing laws, you never get the chance to help people change. God sent His son to change people, not laws.

“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in princes.” – Psalms 118:9

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